Alex, you are one out of one million. Time like this, pepople who knows right or wrong, is suffering a lot. We have a few here too.Yunam, ssangkal, reality, Alex , Bingka, Ginagada, and many many more, your guys make me feel good, not hopeless. Just make sure that when you get angry or excited, your blood pressure is going up, so don't forget to take medicine to keep within normal, 100/60 to 150/ 90. if you have high bp, check the bp as soon as you wake up. If high number[sbp] is 110 or less, "hold" med for 4 hours then check again and up to 110, take med. We write here to express our feeling is theraputic and to keep us healthy. I decided a few days off and abserve the situation of Korea, because while I work, I think of Korea in back of my mind. I listen what my body want, so I am here. I understand the Alex 110 %. Let us give moral support each others and pass the difficult time. Remember we are here. Thanks