When I was young, the Christmas means Joy, Gift exchange, play drama, singing and dancing in the church .I remember just like yesterday, that elder sisters from home town, come to my house and carry me to their back and went church to practice for the Eve ply. The life was joy and joy every moment, and we did not have toys like now, so I made myself the doll to give my friend as gift, took several days to complete. A piece of cloth saw and filled with grain to body and put arms and legs and head at the last. put the eyes and nose and mouth. I was so satisfied of my product, the doll and wait the big day and give to my best friend. She was so happy and unexperienced joys we felt together. We did not have too much $$$ , but plenty of happiness and joys those days. Where is all those feeling of joy, emotions, love.... I lived behind of elementary school , because my dad was principal of that school, and next of that school there was small humble looking church, old organ in that church I never forget. I heard the first time "The silent night". The minister was the brother of my neighbor who was doctor, the whole family ran away from the North Korea, because they are the educated family. I was play their children. In the spring time come after the harsh winter was gone,, My two boy friend come to my house early in the morning and yell "come out Young! , so lets go to catch the tedpool [ol chang yi]". How fun it was to catch them all day without eating lunch. two boys and I had to come home, because we can not see them anymore , dark. I am too slow and I could not catch not even one, boys feel sorry, so they always give me 2 tedpool, I hold with one hand my rubber shoe with water, and I hold my stomach because of hunger pain. This was going everyday....cont to next...